“Don’t worry or surrender to your fear. For you’ve believed in God, now trust and believe in me also.” John 14:1 TPT
I’ve been reading through the gospels for the first quarter of 2020. A chapter a day. I read through each chapter in 3 translations. NIV TPT and ESV This morning in the TPT this was the first verse. Oh how timely. How quickly I can lean toward worry or surrender to the fear. I haven’t always been that way. Just the past few years. I can start spiraling in my spirit so quickly over worry and fear. But I do know God. I’ve believed God and He has delivered me and answered so many prayers for me so so many times. So yes even in this pandemic, even in job worries, family worries and fear of this unseen virus Jesus is calling me to trust!
This verse is still timely to me today. Hopefully I am a little farther along in the trust department. But am I really? I do know this. The only real combat I have ever found to worry and fear is relationship with Him. I have heard it said that there are 365 times in the Bible that it says “Fear not”, one for every day of the year. But I know it’s easier said than done. Look back at the verse. It says “don’t worry or surrender to your fear” and then it tells you how. “You have believed God, now trust and believe also in me”. You see you need to have that relationship where you have believed Him, the one where you have seen Him work and the one where you know Jesus to be who He says He is. It’s easy to say Fear not, but the foundation of a relationship with Him is what will help you to not surrender to the fears. One of the practices that I started doing as I have dealt with anxiety over the last few years was playing a little game with myself “worse case scenario”. Many times if I think through the “worse case scenario” of what I am worried about rationally, I would still get down to that even if the worse thing my mind could conceive would happen I would still have Jesus and He would still see me through it. There are things that cripple you and bring you to your knees in this life. Things my mind can’t even conceive of, I know. Which is why I need Jesus so much! If I didn’t have the foundation of a life where I have put my trust in Him over and over. A life where I have already believed Him and He has proven to be who He says He is to me over and over again, I would surrender to worry and I would surrender to fear. But believing Him to be who He says He is and building this relationship with Him is what helps me to trust Him. Friends I don’t get up every day and have a quiet time and spend time with Him because I am some super spiritual person. I do it because I am not! I spend time with Him every morning because I would worry myself sick and surrender to my fears and anxiety and I would be a wretched woman to live with and to work with every day. I KNOW I need Him every day to walk with me so that I can be the person that people can live with and so that I can be, hopefully, one step closer to who He has called me to be.