I went for a walk yesterday. I have been desperately trying to get back on my exercise program and to get back to eating right. So yesterday morning I decided to get out and take a morning walk. If you are not from around here, you may ask what the big deal is about this, but you have to understand that I live in Mississippi. You see while I would never be able to live up North because my body would never acclimate to cold weather for long periods of time (like over a week), living in Mississippi there is only one really hard month to live here. The month of August is usually miserable because of the heat. You break into a sweat just walking from the front door to your car. There is rarely a breeze blowing. In August it is just plain Hot and Still unless there is a thunderstorm brewing. So I braved the hot temperatures because I do love a good walk outside when I am here at the lake. There are so many more sights to see than walking in my neighborhood back home. So off I went, I put my headphones on, turned on a podcast and set out. As I was walking there was this little butterfly that flew along beside me for a good while. I kept wanting it to land so I could take a picture. (The picture below of me with the butterfly is not from my walk it was taken years ago but the rest are from my walk) I saw wildflowers blooming, and water pouring out of a drainage pond into a little creek that flows into the big lake. But the biggest blessing and surprise of all was a cool breeze when I would end up under a shade tree. I found myself taking a pause in a couple of shady spots just to feel the breeze on my skin. I love a gentle breeze, it almost feels like a whisper from God. “I’m still here, and I’ve got you.”
I’ve had some stuff I’ve been praying about this past week that has sort of monopolized my quiet time and I have to admit it’s frustrating when I’m not sure what the end result of these prayers will be. I am not a very patient person and many times in my life I have prayed for a burning bush or a pillar of cloud right in front of me telling me which direction to go in. (Sidenote, I’ve yet to have one.) But I can say that when I look back I can see God’s fingerprints all over me during those times. I do appreciate the faith that that has built in me. You see I have no doubt of God’s deliverance, I just sometimes fear the how. Because I know that His thoughts are not mine and His ways are not mine. (Isaiah 55:8) I know that he has a purpose and a plan. But that doesn’t mean that my human soul is not going to hurt in the midst of the working out his purpose. I guess because of the last year or so, I am fearful of that pain. I don’t want to hurt like that again. Ever, if possible, though I know it is more likely to not be possible. But at least for a long time.
This week as I have prayed over these things that are completely out of my control, I have had one song going over and over in my head. “Thy Will” by Hillary Scott and the Scott Family. You can listen to it here. When you just don’t know how to pray this song covers it all. It has been a huge source of comfort for me. The words in the bridge “Down like a child on my knees all that comes to me is thy will be done.” I read a series of books years ago that some of you may have read called The Mitford Series by Jan Karon. The main character in this book would say quite often that when you don’t know what to pray just pray the prayer that never fails. “Thy Will be Done.”
When I feel God’s whispers in the breeze it blesses and Restores my soul. I know that even when pain does come at me again that I will survive it. I know that God has what concerns me. Psalm 138:8 The Lord will perfect what concerns me. You see my faith comes in where I know that whether things work out to my liking or not, they are going to be with God’s best thoughts in mind. I do believe in his goodness. I know that if I open my eyes I will see his goodness in the land of the living (Psalm 27:13) Romans 8:28 tells me that All things work for good for those who love Him and are called to His purpose. I know that he will carry me through it all. But I also know that in this world we will have trouble so I do have to hang on to the one who’s got me. I must continue to look for the joy and the beauty. I also have quite a lot to get done this next week. In a little over a week we will have our first Restore Bible Study and right now I have about 50 people who say they are coming. It is scary cool! So if you are reading this and you are a praying person, please pray for me as I try to continue to lay my concerns down and to get done what God has called me to do for him. Thanks for stopping by! Praying you have a great week!!