One thing that is disconcerting to me as I write these devotions is moving from one theme to another. When I feel the Lord has given me a theme or a certain book He wants me to study I am able to get up and know where I am headed and study and write. But when I finish one study and am ready to move on to the next study. I find myself praying “Lord, what do I write? What do I write?” It’s times like these, the moving from one particular study to the next that I get anxious about the writing and start letting the questions of “who do I think I am?”, creep in. So I am going to ask forgiveness up front, like right now, if the thoughts I have for today are a bit rambling. That being said, I also want to mention that this week is Spring break week for me. (One perk of working for a school district is I still get things like Spring break, Christmas break and Thanksgiving break!) So I may not be as punctual on posting this week as I have been as I am trying to revamp my mornings just a bit. I want the Lord to be my leader on whether I write these devotions or not. I want what I write to be from Him and to be the thoughts He has given me and not to write just for the sake of writing. I find that my personal quiet time will suffer at times because I am more worried about what I am putting out than what I am taking in, and that is not the point at all. So please forgive me this week if I am not as punctual or if the Lord gives me a day off of writing just to speak to me.
Lately in my quiet time, the Lord has been telling me to “Be Still” a little more and to “Slow Down” and not to get ahead of Him. I don’t know if you have a tendency to do that like I do or not. Being more of a Mary than a Martha naturally I would like to think that would not be so much of a problem for me. (How pious is that?) But I think simply being a woman makes it a problem. Yesterday while having lunch with friends the comment was made ~ “A woman’s work is never done.” That’s very true of us isn’t it? There is always another dish to wash, another load of clothes to wash or dry or fold, or a floor to sweep. If we are in the season of raising children it’s even more than that. There are babies to be fed, and played with, and disciplined and toys to be picked up. But scripture points us over and over to being still. My tendency and sometimes just life and responsibilities will put a timeline on how long I can sit in His presence. And yet, that is what He beckons me to do. He wants us to be still, His word tells me to ~
“Be still, and know that I am God.” Psalm 46:10
When Martha was worried about the preparations and the house and probably the food, “What would she feed Jesus?” Mary sat at His feet and He praised her for it.
“But the Lord answered her, ‘Martha, Martha, you are anxious and troubled about many things, but one thing is necessary. Mary has chosen the good portion, which will not be taken away from her.’” Luke 10:41-42
I want to spend this week, well! I have a list of things in my head that I want to get done in my house having a few days off from work, but as much as or even more, I want to take some time and sit at my Saviors feet. I want to let Him fill my cup instead of holding it out for others to fill. I want to relearn the art and practice of being still before Him, of sitting at His feet. I want Him to be my guide for my days off. I want to choose the good portion!
Won’t you take some time and choose the good portion too!